2-19-2012

Sunday Feb. 19th, 2012

Recently three of my great amazing friends had babies.
Welcome to the world lil Harper, Chance, and Kyle.
Full of innocence, love, true beingness, and peace.
Perfect little bodies.
It makes me ponder what changes in life and what creates sickness in peoples lives.
Why did I get cancer?
My parents never would have imagined their little girl was to one day get this awful disease.
I was once that perfect little baby with only hope ahead until something changed.
Was it my environment? My food? My hidden resentment from something subconscious?
It baffles me to this day that I have CANCER?!?!
So weird!
My aunts friend from high school found out about her cancer the same time I did and she just passed away with brain cancer.
Even though I don;t know why I have cancer, I need to stop wasting energy on the past and concentrate on how to be healthy in the future. Things could always be worse.
Some chemo patients have reactions and side-effects much worse than I do. And sadly many with cancer don't make it!
It breaks my heart.
Children loosing parents.
Parents loosing children.
It's a sad, scary reality in many peoples lives.
I am very blessed and thankful for this journey and how it has been and is going to turn out!

The last couple days have felt somewhat normal. After a two week hell period of not leaving my bed, I am up and about.
Had date night with Jenise. We went and got spoiled at City Fish Market (thanks hubby for company perks!) Then we went for a couple drinks and dancing!
I rocked my bald head (better than whippin my wig off in the middle of dinner like I did last time freaking out the bartender). Some guy even tried to bump and grind with me on the dance floor.
Backed that booty into mine.
Turned and said, "Thanks but I'm married!" as I held up my bling bling!
YES!
I got hit on as a bald chick!

The next day I had date day with the hubby.
Little lovin, then breakfast, then garage salein'.
We had a blast.

Yesterday was park, then beach, then a play date and then dinner at Nikki's.
Holy action packed.
Can you tell I missed my life?
And today is the Renaissance Festival!!
So much fun!

Only 3 days till my next and final chemo!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!
Gotta take full advantage of feeelin good.
So here's to us all taking advantage of our lives!
Now go out and live!

Love you all!