I got this email today and it brought me to tears! Heres to my mother, my mother-in-law, all my beautiful grandmothers, and every single mother I know! Happy early Mothers Day! I love you!
"Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just becauseI didn't want to put him down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom."
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Gleedonna....
Ok so was supposed to record Kitchen Nightmares, but when I go to watch it Glee starts playing.......and ok I know I am a major loser...but I LOVE it!!!!!
Holy @$%^ pardon my French, but it was the Madonna episode. If you know me, you know that Like A Virgin is my favorite song to sing karaoke! I mean it when I say that I heart me some Madonna! Poking eyes out with raunchy bras is so my style! K maybe not that far! hehe
So my new dream...to be an actress on Glee! To sing, dress up, act, be sassy and sexy and sing all at the same time! Wow! I should have been on Broadway!
Is it too late? Has a 29 year old ever broke into the scene and been successful? How kick booty would that be!
To be inspired by prime time TV! The American Dream! Fanfriggintastic!
"If you want it, you already got it, if you thought it, it better be what you want...."
"Tic-Toc-Tic-Toc...."
xo
"BIG Movie"...
So Micah, Lela and I went to Micah's first theatre movie tonight! And surprisingly it went very well...except for the fact he doesn't understand whispering yet! I mean for 21 months I guess I can't expect him to know how to be politically correct in a huge dark room filled with strangers giving me dirty looks because I bring a baby to a movie! lol
But anyway, we went to see Ocean by Disney! As soon as the movie came on Micah said, "BIG MOVIE....WOW!!!!" And the look on his face was priceless! To be filled with such awe and amazement, reminds me to soak up the little things in life I take for granted!
So, it was actually the perfect movie to bring lil man to! Filled with fish, sharks, crabs, etc. all to which Micah felt the need to call out the name of every animal, every time they came on the screen. "CRABS, CRABS, CRABS..." followed by a couple giggles from the strangers surrounding us!
He even joined in on the popcorn eating festivities!
So to sum it up...SUCCESS!
Whats playing next week?!?!?!?!?!
xo
Friday, April 23, 2010
Down by da beach...
So Micah and I gallivanted to the beach this morning for a run and then to play in the sand and water for awhile! The beach is the most peaceful relaxing place to be accept for the sand! lol Sometimes I wish it were not so messy! I know...I know. This is a ridiculous request but holy moly Micah knows how to create havoc in my face with a fistful of gritty grimy sand!
As soon as I spread out me sheet, secure all 4 corners with random objects from the depths of my beach bag, sit my booty down, lean back, take a deep breath, and think...."wow what a perfect day for the beach", a huge fistful to my face!
Had to laugh but there goes my peaceful moment, my clean blanket, and my snack I brought for us to share! Oh boys will be boys! He thought it was hilarious! At first I got mad and said, "Absolutely not! Not nice Micah!" But then I realized that life as a child is not meant to be told no to all the time!
So what did I do?...I made the most of my day with my lil man! I let him bury me, I buried him, we build sandcastles that I didn't want him to destroy but to him it was the best thing EVER, and we walked and picked up seashells by the seashore!
When I think back as he is napping I feel like a successful momma for the morning! And that is the best feeling ever! Practice makes perfect, so I just need to remember life is about having FUN and living in the moment!
So go to the beach, throw some sand, pee in the ocean, do whatever makes you feel free....It's worth it! =)
xoxoxo
As soon as I spread out me sheet, secure all 4 corners with random objects from the depths of my beach bag, sit my booty down, lean back, take a deep breath, and think...."wow what a perfect day for the beach", a huge fistful to my face!
Had to laugh but there goes my peaceful moment, my clean blanket, and my snack I brought for us to share! Oh boys will be boys! He thought it was hilarious! At first I got mad and said, "Absolutely not! Not nice Micah!" But then I realized that life as a child is not meant to be told no to all the time!
So what did I do?...I made the most of my day with my lil man! I let him bury me, I buried him, we build sandcastles that I didn't want him to destroy but to him it was the best thing EVER, and we walked and picked up seashells by the seashore!
When I think back as he is napping I feel like a successful momma for the morning! And that is the best feeling ever! Practice makes perfect, so I just need to remember life is about having FUN and living in the moment!
So go to the beach, throw some sand, pee in the ocean, do whatever makes you feel free....It's worth it! =)
xoxoxo
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Bed time...
Why is it that bed time is my fav time of day.....
because of how my lil man tells me "couch" cuz he wants to stay and cuddle
because of how he lays his head on my shoulder
because of how he knows to give me a kiss and a hug without me even asking
because of how much I love him to pieces
because of the sounds of night coming from outside beside the pond
because of the feeling of nostalgia I get remembering night time as a child
because I can look back and thank God for the blessings of the day and how lucky I am
because of how I love to make wishes on stars and know something somewhere feels my wish
because I know tomorrow brings an opportunity to paint on a new canvas and color my life....
xoxo
because of how my lil man tells me "couch" cuz he wants to stay and cuddle
because of how he lays his head on my shoulder
because of how he knows to give me a kiss and a hug without me even asking
because of how much I love him to pieces
because of the sounds of night coming from outside beside the pond
because of the feeling of nostalgia I get remembering night time as a child
because I can look back and thank God for the blessings of the day and how lucky I am
because of how I love to make wishes on stars and know something somewhere feels my wish
because I know tomorrow brings an opportunity to paint on a new canvas and color my life....
xoxo
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
American Idol can.....
kiss it! Grrrrrr I should be on that stage right now! After 2 tryouts and 2 big fat no's....I am hostile! Fergie has nuthin on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Livin Life Outloud!!!
So for those of you that do not know I am currently taking course called Landmark to help me life a more fulfilling life and live a life I love! It has completely transformed the way I look at life and helps me see whats important!
In the last 6 months I have realized that what I have looked for in a significant other has always been perfection and if I could find myself I would even have issues with myself! I got slapped in the face when my coach said that I was never going to be happy if I kept on the track I was on. I had looked at all of my past relationships and realized...damn, she was so right! I would bitch and moan about the little things and try to change people.
This HUGE realization has transformed my entire life. I am now more compassionate. Everyone has their issues and hardships and crap to deal with! Especially when it comes to my relationship with my hubby. We had been dating only 4 months before I got preggo with Micah and I didn't know if he was the one! Well that was because I was not loving him for who he was...I was loving him for the "perfect" person I wanted him to be and the "perfect" family I wanted!
I still catch myself getting worked up but now I can stop myself in my own tracks and say..Jessica why are you upset? Are you accepting him or trying to change him? This is a lot harder than it sounds. Today I got mad because I didn't want him to go golfing. But then I stopped my self, apologized and realized he needs some time for himself just like I do! And in return our relationship gets stronger and stronger by the day! Now we are married and I could not have found a more perfect man for me!!!
Landmark has also shown he that I have lots of things on my to do list. Many DREAMS and asspirations I have and things I can accomplish but have not taken action on. I consider myself a leader but when i think about how the people in my life view me, I don't think they see me as a leader because I don't really do anything to lead anybody anymore!
So I am starting to take action and seeing things in my life blossom! Look I started a blog! Yeah! Always thought I wanted to write so this is a great start!
I have been playing guitar more. A couple weeks ago I played a couple songs at a restaurant and a waitress came up to me and asked if I could give her 6 year old daughter lesson!!! How fun. Just another opp that I could take up! Things I didn't really even think about or see for myself! Wierd how that works!
I want to learn to cook better and want to eat healtheir and have Micah eat better too. Therefore I have started a project with my mommy group to build a recipe book with recipes from the moms and local chefs in the area! This book will be a kind of scrapbook too with stories and picutres so we can all remember our awesome mommy group when the kids are all grown up! Love the idea now just have to finish it!
See all the things in my life that are and could be amazing!!!!! I am working on it!
So for all of you that read this get out there and live your life out loud! It really is amazing to feel this way and proud of who you are on a daily basis instead of just being the usual and the norm!
And if you want more info on Landmark...
http://www.landmarkeducation.com/
love peace and chicken grease! xoxoxo
In the last 6 months I have realized that what I have looked for in a significant other has always been perfection and if I could find myself I would even have issues with myself! I got slapped in the face when my coach said that I was never going to be happy if I kept on the track I was on. I had looked at all of my past relationships and realized...damn, she was so right! I would bitch and moan about the little things and try to change people.
This HUGE realization has transformed my entire life. I am now more compassionate. Everyone has their issues and hardships and crap to deal with! Especially when it comes to my relationship with my hubby. We had been dating only 4 months before I got preggo with Micah and I didn't know if he was the one! Well that was because I was not loving him for who he was...I was loving him for the "perfect" person I wanted him to be and the "perfect" family I wanted!
I still catch myself getting worked up but now I can stop myself in my own tracks and say..Jessica why are you upset? Are you accepting him or trying to change him? This is a lot harder than it sounds. Today I got mad because I didn't want him to go golfing. But then I stopped my self, apologized and realized he needs some time for himself just like I do! And in return our relationship gets stronger and stronger by the day! Now we are married and I could not have found a more perfect man for me!!!
Landmark has also shown he that I have lots of things on my to do list. Many DREAMS and asspirations I have and things I can accomplish but have not taken action on. I consider myself a leader but when i think about how the people in my life view me, I don't think they see me as a leader because I don't really do anything to lead anybody anymore!
So I am starting to take action and seeing things in my life blossom! Look I started a blog! Yeah! Always thought I wanted to write so this is a great start!
I have been playing guitar more. A couple weeks ago I played a couple songs at a restaurant and a waitress came up to me and asked if I could give her 6 year old daughter lesson!!! How fun. Just another opp that I could take up! Things I didn't really even think about or see for myself! Wierd how that works!
I want to learn to cook better and want to eat healtheir and have Micah eat better too. Therefore I have started a project with my mommy group to build a recipe book with recipes from the moms and local chefs in the area! This book will be a kind of scrapbook too with stories and picutres so we can all remember our awesome mommy group when the kids are all grown up! Love the idea now just have to finish it!
See all the things in my life that are and could be amazing!!!!! I am working on it!
So for all of you that read this get out there and live your life out loud! It really is amazing to feel this way and proud of who you are on a daily basis instead of just being the usual and the norm!
And if you want more info on Landmark...
http://www.landmarkeducation.com/
love peace and chicken grease! xoxoxo
Hump Day
Hello world! Happy Hump Day! Wed are good days in the life of the Hoffs! Anthony usually has off which means family time! If anyone knows the schedule of a chef you know what I mean by...husband who? Ok not quite that bad but we, Micah and I, sure do love his days off! I get to do fun things like.....go to the dentist and get half of my teeth scraped away! After 3 years of no dentist visits, it actually went quite well. Drooling all over myself, getting called out by the dentist that I bite my cheek, grind my teeth, and have a dangerous piercing that could eventually do damage to my gums is what I consider a great visit! Could have been way worse.
I did find out that my lil man could def use a visit! He will be 2 in July and the dentist said that once he gets all of his baby teeth they should see him! I can't imagine them sticking their machetes and daggers into his mouth...he's gonna freak out! Awwww lil man! I will let him bring his choo choos! lol
So what else?
Random thought...anyone know how to stop ice cubes from getting freezer burnt. This in fact is one of my pet peeves! Gross! They stink so bad! I mean I even touch one and my fingers smell.......well...really bad! lol I guess I just need to throw the old ice like once a week! I just hate adding to my to do list! But I guess changing the ice is better that say picking up poo or worse yet....working retail again! Being a stay home momma is pretty alright!
I like watching Oprah cuz she always says being a mom is the hardest job in the world! Makes me feel batter about making no money!
It makes me wanna sing that old En Vouge song....What a man what a man what man what a mighty good man...say it again! Ant is the best hubby and daddy ever! My sugar daddy! lol
So I lost a diamond today in my wedding band that I have had for like a month! Sooo sad! It is Anthony's moms wedding band! I prob should have got it looked at to secure the stones but now instead I have a gaping hole instead! Smart! I know!
Highlight of Micah's day...Dora on Demand has 5 new episodes! Kinda sad when he comes up to me with the remote and says....."Mom, Dora Dora Dora, TV peeeeeez!" How can I resist this amazingly beautiful 21 month old!
"I'm the map. I'm the map. I'm the map. I'm the map. I'm the mmmmmmmaaaaappppppppp!"
I did find out that my lil man could def use a visit! He will be 2 in July and the dentist said that once he gets all of his baby teeth they should see him! I can't imagine them sticking their machetes and daggers into his mouth...he's gonna freak out! Awwww lil man! I will let him bring his choo choos! lol
So what else?
Random thought...anyone know how to stop ice cubes from getting freezer burnt. This in fact is one of my pet peeves! Gross! They stink so bad! I mean I even touch one and my fingers smell.......well...really bad! lol I guess I just need to throw the old ice like once a week! I just hate adding to my to do list! But I guess changing the ice is better that say picking up poo or worse yet....working retail again! Being a stay home momma is pretty alright!
I like watching Oprah cuz she always says being a mom is the hardest job in the world! Makes me feel batter about making no money!
It makes me wanna sing that old En Vouge song....What a man what a man what man what a mighty good man...say it again! Ant is the best hubby and daddy ever! My sugar daddy! lol
So I lost a diamond today in my wedding band that I have had for like a month! Sooo sad! It is Anthony's moms wedding band! I prob should have got it looked at to secure the stones but now instead I have a gaping hole instead! Smart! I know!
Highlight of Micah's day...Dora on Demand has 5 new episodes! Kinda sad when he comes up to me with the remote and says....."Mom, Dora Dora Dora, TV peeeeeez!" How can I resist this amazingly beautiful 21 month old!
"I'm the map. I'm the map. I'm the map. I'm the map. I'm the mmmmmmmaaaaappppppppp!"
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Wow! I am officially a blogger!
Ok...this new age tech stuff is amazing! lol Yes I am a nerd and all of that but the phrase "everyone is doing it" has been my motto for my entire life! When my brother jumped off of the roof of our 2 story house on to the trampoline and landed it looking like a champ...I tried and ended up with whiplash and a neck brace pad around my neck for 2 weeks. So this being a follower obviously got me far in life....so I was kidding when I say do things because everyone else does them! Blogging on the other hand is now something that I can say I am a late bloomer at but oh well. Looks like its the start to a very tight relationship! My blog and I are like blood sisters! I have only been blood sisters with two other girls in my life. In elemetary school my 3 best friends Mackenzie, Gretchen and I decided it would be cool to make ourselves bleed and mix it up! Very smart 3rd graders! Not so much!
I am glad that I have a place to vent and ramble because I don't really know very many ppl that would just sit here and with blank expressions just take this abuse! Hehe jk!
But lets see...you wanted to Holler at the Hoff's! Or maybe that was a dumb name for my blog since I am really hollering at you! Oh well too late now! Ha!
But lately life has been pretty eventful in the life of the Hoff's!
Get married...check
Throw Lela a 50th birthday party...check
Watch Dora for the 1,789,123 th time this week...check
Trying to teach Micah to swim....half a check. He's still a little scared when I put him under! This is an ongoing feat!
Learn how to make a killer potato salad and coleslaw...check thanks to my hubby!
Clean...no check yet today...ugh! I'd rather start a blog and sit on my culo!
Laundry...nope on that either.
Push the stoller to the cluster called Walmart for my daily exercise and buy some almond milk for my lil man...check! (Every time I go here I swear I see either someone wanting to run over an old person or an old person running into someone's car. What can you say its the closest Walmart to the retirment capital of the U.S. Boca Raton!)
Sit Micah on the potty...check check check to no avail! What gives before Vegas he went all the time...now nada! I lissed the "GOLDEN" opp to potty train.
Play choo choo...check!
Try for baby number two...check check check! Hubby is all smiles these days!
Phew...that was exhausting just typing that.
K well time to peel lil man off the Yo Gabba Gabba episode....too much tv today! Fryin his brain!
Will update soon! Thanks for taking the time to read!
Live a life you love!!!!!!!!!!!!
J.H.
I am glad that I have a place to vent and ramble because I don't really know very many ppl that would just sit here and with blank expressions just take this abuse! Hehe jk!
But lets see...you wanted to Holler at the Hoff's! Or maybe that was a dumb name for my blog since I am really hollering at you! Oh well too late now! Ha!
But lately life has been pretty eventful in the life of the Hoff's!
Get married...check
Throw Lela a 50th birthday party...check
Watch Dora for the 1,789,123 th time this week...check
Trying to teach Micah to swim....half a check. He's still a little scared when I put him under! This is an ongoing feat!
Learn how to make a killer potato salad and coleslaw...check thanks to my hubby!
Clean...no check yet today...ugh! I'd rather start a blog and sit on my culo!
Laundry...nope on that either.
Push the stoller to the cluster called Walmart for my daily exercise and buy some almond milk for my lil man...check! (Every time I go here I swear I see either someone wanting to run over an old person or an old person running into someone's car. What can you say its the closest Walmart to the retirment capital of the U.S. Boca Raton!)
Sit Micah on the potty...check check check to no avail! What gives before Vegas he went all the time...now nada! I lissed the "GOLDEN" opp to potty train.
Play choo choo...check!
Try for baby number two...check check check! Hubby is all smiles these days!
Phew...that was exhausting just typing that.
K well time to peel lil man off the Yo Gabba Gabba episode....too much tv today! Fryin his brain!
Will update soon! Thanks for taking the time to read!
Live a life you love!!!!!!!!!!!!
J.H.
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