36 days after the phone call that changed my life, I finally get to start attacking this shit in my body!
Over a month of it just sitting there, getting bigger, possibly spreading to other parts of my body!
And FINALLY I can start killing it!
Murder she wrote!
Kind of appropriate that it's Halloween today!
Boo cancer....I know I scare the shit out of you!
So in typical Jessica fashion I had to dress up in costume!
It was a tough decision but I ended up stealing some stuff from Micah's dress up drawer and created a pretty cute pirate get-up!
Dirty face and all, Anthony and I headed to Hollywood to get me plugged in!
I brought some "treats", well fresh baked banana bread, for the nurses to make sure they got some Halloween goodies and maybe for a little brown nosing!
It's always good to be on the nurses good side!
Extra "love" can come in many forms! Warm blankets, more attention, better drugs...lol!
So we show up at 9:00 am.
They let me know it won't be too long before a chemo chair is available!
"But I was supposed to see Dr. Perez before chemo. I CAN'T start chemo with out seeing her!"
I panicked!
So we sat in the waiting room, then in a private room for the next hour and a half.
10:30 we finally see the Dr.
By this time I am a wreck!
I have paced the room about a million times and started crying about 20 times.
Nerves, anxiety, stress.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Too much!
I had been waiting for results from my lymph node biopsies and pelvic MRI for a week and needed to know results!
HAS MY CANCER SPREAD?!?!?!
After a few minutes of checking her notes the Doc says...
"Lymph nodes appear to be clear of cancer. The biopsies came back negative. We will still take a closer look during surgery!"
"And the pelvic MRI showed no signs of ovarian cancer! There was just one spot that appears to be a benign cyst."
Can a sister get an AMEN!?!?
A HALLELUJAH!?!?!
A THANK THE LORD ABOVE!!!!!!??!?!?!
I hugged Anthony so hard my port almost popped out and my boob started throbbing but damn was I happy!
Hard hugs hurt but I was in celebration mode! =)
Ok now bring on the chemo!
Still nervous!
Couldn't stop bouncing my leg, twisting my hair, grinding my teeth...you name it!
I just didn't know what to expect!
How was it going to feel?
How was my body going to react?
So we move to the back of the clinic...the chemo section.
I got my chair and Ant got his spot next to my throne!
He was the one who looked like the chemo patient....lol bald, snuggled up with wires all around him.
I asked, "Did you dress up as a chemo patient for Halloween?!"
Not very politically correct but I thought it was funny!
She lists all the stuff I am going to be injected with...
Prilosec, Zophran, Benedryll, Adivan, the list went on.....
Holy drug lord.
(Maybe I will make her a new name tag. Carrie the Drug Lord)
I really loved her after my second round of Adivan. Totally chill. No more nerves!
So the IV just plugged right into the port in my chest.
Could barley even feel it.
Was pretty anticlimactic.
Was a lot less scary than I had anticipated...kind of like when I re watched the movie IT by Stephen King as an adult...just not very scary!
The only downfall was that i had a slight allergic reaction. Every time they tried to turn the drip faster my back hurt so they had to slow it back down and administer it very slow!
Anthony and I both fell asleep and next thing ya know it was 4:00 and Nurse Carrie the Drug Lord was waking us up.
Then home sweet home we drove.
I went to bed.
Daddy took Micah Trick-Or-Treating with his best friend Andrew!
xoxoxo
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