Day 17

Day 17
Wednesday.
Hump day.
Sad day.
Woke up stressed and depressed.
Jena's gotta fly home to Minnesota today!
then I get a call from Dr. Perez's office.
"We need you here Friday am at 9:00."
"I am supposed to go to Chicago for the weekend. Can I come in Monday?"
"Nope Dr. Niemark said you need to be seen this week. It is an emergency."
"OK!! I will cancel my trip. I WILL BE THERE!"
Hung up.
Wonder why she said emergency?
A little freaked out!
Ok a LOT freaked out!
tears.
Soooo sad!
I wanted a getaway with my hubby, no kids, to visit two of my besties before chemo started.
Guess I will just have to plan a bigger, better trip for when this cancer business has left the building!
And I'm scared....this cancer talk is turning into action soon...
Which is a great thing but I am soooo scared!
Scared for how my body is gonna react.
Scared it's in other parts of my body.
Scared for surgery.
Scared for my family.
Just scared!

That's all!