Do you hear the music?

I wish I could have a soundtrack behind my life! How can it be that your life can flash in front of you when you listen to a song that touches you right where it counts....right where a memory lingers...right where your heart is beating? If I didn't have music I would be completely lost! Playing my guitar and singing sets me totally free whether anyone is listening or not! Now I just need to out all of the notebooks and notebooks full of lyrics into actual music! Now how to go about doing that and and having the songs meet my expectations. Am I scared, unmotivated, too busy, or just full of excuses? I think the latter is the biggest thing standing in my way!

The last few years I have been trying to find enlightenment within myself. I have become much more at peace with the world around me but still struggle immensely when I get anxious! Music is my escape from that anxiety! I could grab my guitar and sing myself into somewhere not close to here! =)

I was just listening to Grieves a hip hop artist from Seattle. The song titled Irreversible is amazing! Check it out! He raps about being a little boy about 4 years old and hiding under a piano! He listens to the old man singing. He hears every crack in his voice, every tear that he wept, every passion and joy! He proclaims that he is what he is today because of this memory and no one can ever take that away from him!

As I listen I try to remember the turning point in my life when music became such an overwhelming passion for me! I love it so much it can make my heart hurt and float with happiness and the same time! The moment for me was back when I was in about 6th or 8th grade. I was in a group called Carpenter's Tools Too. It was a sort of gospel choir for kids. During a gig we had at some church in some town we were singing some song, obviously details didn't matter, but I started crying! Something inside me punched me in the stomach and I had never felt so good, so in touch with the spiritual side of who I really was.

Music set that feeling free inside of me and from that point in time I was sold on whatever that was! And like Grieves says, they can't take that away! =) Now I just need to find a way to get this enlightened feeling into my everyday life without losing that passion for it! So yes I hear the music and it is setting me free! =)

Quote of the Post- "Music speaks what can not be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul!"- Unknown