So for those of you that do not know I am currently taking course called Landmark to help me life a more fulfilling life and live a life I love! It has completely transformed the way I look at life and helps me see whats important!
In the last 6 months I have realized that what I have looked for in a significant other has always been perfection and if I could find myself I would even have issues with myself! I got slapped in the face when my coach said that I was never going to be happy if I kept on the track I was on. I had looked at all of my past relationships and realized...damn, she was so right! I would bitch and moan about the little things and try to change people.
This HUGE realization has transformed my entire life. I am now more compassionate. Everyone has their issues and hardships and crap to deal with! Especially when it comes to my relationship with my hubby. We had been dating only 4 months before I got preggo with Micah and I didn't know if he was the one! Well that was because I was not loving him for who he was...I was loving him for the "perfect" person I wanted him to be and the "perfect" family I wanted!
I still catch myself getting worked up but now I can stop myself in my own tracks and say..Jessica why are you upset? Are you accepting him or trying to change him? This is a lot harder than it sounds. Today I got mad because I didn't want him to go golfing. But then I stopped my self, apologized and realized he needs some time for himself just like I do! And in return our relationship gets stronger and stronger by the day! Now we are married and I could not have found a more perfect man for me!!!
Landmark has also shown he that I have lots of things on my to do list. Many DREAMS and asspirations I have and things I can accomplish but have not taken action on. I consider myself a leader but when i think about how the people in my life view me, I don't think they see me as a leader because I don't really do anything to lead anybody anymore!
So I am starting to take action and seeing things in my life blossom! Look I started a blog! Yeah! Always thought I wanted to write so this is a great start!
I have been playing guitar more. A couple weeks ago I played a couple songs at a restaurant and a waitress came up to me and asked if I could give her 6 year old daughter lesson!!! How fun. Just another opp that I could take up! Things I didn't really even think about or see for myself! Wierd how that works!
I want to learn to cook better and want to eat healtheir and have Micah eat better too. Therefore I have started a project with my mommy group to build a recipe book with recipes from the moms and local chefs in the area! This book will be a kind of scrapbook too with stories and picutres so we can all remember our awesome mommy group when the kids are all grown up! Love the idea now just have to finish it!
See all the things in my life that are and could be amazing!!!!! I am working on it!
So for all of you that read this get out there and live your life out loud! It really is amazing to feel this way and proud of who you are on a daily basis instead of just being the usual and the norm!
And if you want more info on Landmark...
http://www.landmarkeducation.com/
love peace and chicken grease! xoxoxo
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